I try to be thankful for the life that I have been blessed with every day. Yes, even under the circumstances that I have been given. Almost all of us are dealt a bad hand in life. Some are worse than others. What do we do? We lift up our trousers. Roll up our sleeves. And get busy living. Admittedly, in my world of ALS, moving forward does not erase the life I once lived.
As with most of us , I led a pretty active life. My job as a mail man was rather physical. For many years, I had a walking route. It was not uncommon for me to log 10+ miles on foot per day. Rain, snow, hot or cold. Been through it all. I can say that even dealing with the environment, dogs and irate customers (don’t know which was worse ) I really enjoyed my job.
The outdoors holds a place near my heart. There is no peace like that felt in the outdoors away from the hustle and bustle. Smelling the clean air. Just hearing nature around you. I used to love loading up my kayak and making the 2.5 hour drive to the coast. Arriving before daybreak. The smell of ocean water. The sound of sea birds. I also took great pleasure going on hunts come winter. Especially, duck hunting. Waking up when most people are sleeping. Getting into a boat in freezing temperatures. Only to stand waist deep in water. Crazy, right? But there is nothing like watching the sun rise on a crisp morning; listening to the world wake up.
On the domestic hand, past times included working outside in the yard, working on the car and just really doing anything with my hands. Sports have always been a big part of my life , as well. If I was not at the ball park with my kids , you might find me playing softball with the fellas from work.
Most importantly, having a normal life with my family. The hugs I can no longer give. The firm hand shake I took pride in. Standing with an ice cold brew in my hand at gatherings. I miss holding a full conversation. As my speech wanes, conversation has become short and simple. With the holidays on the horizon, it brings to mind our annual New year’s celebration. Since we live in the country, our family and friends would convene at our house and we would have the biggest fireworks display !
Now I am adjusting to my new normal. Like I said, I have nothing but gratitude for my life every day. But there is nothing I wouldn’t give to have my old life back.